[Somehow even seeing a sad cat hurts. It's easier to parse after years of living with Jaspersprite, for all their personalities are night and day. But he doesn't tell him to use text. He doesn't know if he can, with those paws. He sticks to it himself because it's easier than putting his thoughts to speech.]
thank you look after yourself too ok he told me you both got frostbitten and hes one thing but youre small and dont even have a coat to wear
[He actually does laugh, more startled than amused.]
im a sprite right did i tell you about that i know shit theres this game me and my friends all played and each of us had a specific quest in it and like part of it was for winning the game sure but it was supposed to be some special coming of age character growth deal couched in mystery riddles we were all supposed to unravel gradually didnt really work out that way in the end even if i finished mine
my entire universe was created in a video game by a group of aliens and half the shit we see here is either part of a puzzle or some kind of fucked up hallucination whatever the real world is supposed to teach me stopped mattering a long time ago
[ He's not going to argue that Davesprite should focus all his attention in trying to translate the secret hidden messages of the universe. The fact is, it's just not that structured. ]
[Purring isn't what he expected, but it's the kind of sound that sinks in and curls 'round and feels warm, in an aural way. Like Jaspersprite curled up asleep on the couch cushions while Nannasprite baked something in the ship's kitchen. Like him sprawled across both his and Rose's laps back on the Land of Light and Rain on a day where they were just too tired from the weight of their timeline to go out and grind more experience yet. And it's not Jaspersprite that he misses, or not just him, but the sense of times of rest: that even if problems still waited in the wings to assail them, that just for the moment they could have that respite. That something could be good and okay despite everything else wrong in their lives.]
[It makes him think, too, of Clint talking to him the first time he died. He stayed on the line until the static overwhelmed the connection. He felt guilty after the fact for what he said to him, and maybe he'll feel guilty again for putting the cat through this wait, but for now...]
i cant tell you when i fall asleep im not turning on the audio just to let you wait for my breath to slow down and stop but for as long as youre willing to thank you
[ And he does. For hours on end, the Cat simply purrs. Occasionally it grows quieter or louder, as he thinks of others he has watched die from the safety of the Divine Realms. Others he has loved, and given his own life for. From time to time he shifts. But he stays there, at least half the screen taken up by fur, and purrs.
Come the hour after midnight he stops, and he waits. And when no answer comes he howls his grief to the night.
He remembers every last one of them, thousands of years of friends, daughters, sons. He knew that peace awaited them in the Black God's Realms, no matter what might befall them in life. But he also knew that once he left them, they could never meet again.
He hopes dearly that he would get that chance with Davesprite. ]
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Date: 2017-02-07 06:44 pm (UTC)thank you
look after yourself too ok
he told me you both got frostbitten
and hes one thing but youre small and dont even have a coat to wear
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Date: 2017-02-07 06:53 pm (UTC)[ Don't get on him about cat clothes, clothes are not for cats okay it is not dignified. ]
I will make do.
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Date: 2017-02-07 06:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-07 07:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-07 07:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-07 07:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-07 07:20 pm (UTC)of course he does
you work the small soft animal routine good
[A pause.]
you know
im sorry i left that first time
i know you made it ok somehow but still
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Date: 2017-02-07 07:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-07 07:48 pm (UTC)i just dont feel like im doing enough
even when i do help somehow theres always something that comes up
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Date: 2017-02-07 08:05 pm (UTC)The challenge is good for your character.
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Date: 2017-02-07 08:08 pm (UTC)[He actually does laugh, more startled than amused.]
im a sprite right
did i tell you about that
i know shit
theres this game me and my friends all played and each of us had a specific quest in it
and like part of it was for winning the game sure but it was supposed to be some special coming of age character growth deal couched in mystery riddles we were all supposed to unravel gradually
didnt really work out that way in the end
even if i finished mine
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Date: 2017-02-07 08:27 pm (UTC)[ Meaning he will use "it's good for your character" as an excuse for literally your entire life. ]
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Date: 2017-02-07 08:57 pm (UTC)maybe
[He rubs at his face, trying to draw warmth back into his cheeks.]
at least getting a sword forged was more straightforward than this
whats the lesson this time
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Date: 2017-02-08 01:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-08 01:21 am (UTC)whatever the real world is supposed to teach me stopped mattering a long time ago
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Date: 2017-02-08 01:34 am (UTC)[ He's not going to argue that Davesprite should focus all his attention in trying to translate the secret hidden messages of the universe. The fact is, it's just not that structured. ]
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Date: 2017-02-08 02:18 am (UTC)i think im going to let you go now
the talking has helped but
i dont want to make you wait it out when karkat is there
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Date: 2017-02-08 02:32 am (UTC)But I will not leave you, either.
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Date: 2017-02-08 02:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-02-08 02:47 am (UTC)[ He begins to purr. ]
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Date: 2017-02-08 03:13 am (UTC)[It makes him think, too, of Clint talking to him the first time he died. He stayed on the line until the static overwhelmed the connection. He felt guilty after the fact for what he said to him, and maybe he'll feel guilty again for putting the cat through this wait, but for now...]
i cant tell you when i fall asleep
im not turning on the audio just to let you wait for my breath to slow down and stop
but
for as long as youre willing to
thank you
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Date: 2017-02-08 03:33 am (UTC)For as long as it takes.
[ And he does. For hours on end, the Cat simply purrs. Occasionally it grows quieter or louder, as he thinks of others he has watched die from the safety of the Divine Realms. Others he has loved, and given his own life for. From time to time he shifts. But he stays there, at least half the screen taken up by fur, and purrs.
Come the hour after midnight he stops, and he waits. And when no answer comes he howls his grief to the night.
He remembers every last one of them, thousands of years of friends, daughters, sons. He knew that peace awaited them in the Black God's Realms, no matter what might befall them in life. But he also knew that once he left them, they could never meet again.
He hopes dearly that he would get that chance with Davesprite. ]